Summary of my life
1) I only cried 2 time in my life [after primary school]
1st is the death of my friend/buddy/lover/gf watever you wan to call. [Kristy Khoo Peipei, 15]
2nd is the things im going though the past few weeks. [death of grandmother, coma of 2nd grandmother etc..]
2) I'm not a bad manner person in real life [read BADMANNER] i only act or make myself a bad manner.
3) I'm Super extra shy in real life. [If i dunno you, i will not talk to you unless you ask me some stuff]
4) I hate 3 kind of person, a)Late Commer b)Complaint Queen c)Liar
5) I'm very sentimental, people who give me a card/present i haven't use yet lol so rememeber to pass me food !
6) I had no idea how i get so high marks for my English when it's so -_-ZZZ
7) I had no idea why i fail my chinese so badly when i talk so well :O
8) My favourite subject is Math but nfi why i get so high for Sci base subject.
9) I had 2 brother who are very respected guys.
10) When i was in primary one, i burn the whole bird farm [roosted birds Yum]
11) When i was in primary two, i cut a girl hair 30cm long while having Art lesson.
12) When i was in primary four, i asked 4 pretty sweet girls to help me do homework till the teacher found out [mid term]13) When i was in primary four, a P.E teacher was fired for hitting my head and making it bleed wif a watch
14) When i was in Sec sch, i being YEARS of Chairman!
15) Fall in love with FF8 , the song the game EVERYTHING !
16) I forgive easily but never forget.
17) I got 6 unopen Nokia handphones at home.
18) I love to watch movies, love to eat ice cream, love to hug, and love to receive gift/sms
19) Girls tend to talk to me about their secrets nfi why?
20) a break true of myself ! the things i like :p
Favourite:
- Food: any western food
- Drinks: Sugercane, watermelon, long island tea, tonic coke, passive coke and many more?
Best:
- Friend i had in life: Pamela Huang
- Friend i had [met] in Bnet: Swirl aka Randy, Pr3d aka Yi Zhong, Storm aka Kailun
- Friend i had [not met yet :p] in Bnet: Greenie aka Liling [ she rox ] Gwen aka Liping and lastly Su aka Su?
- Friend in Pri Sch: Feng Ling[MIA], Angela[MIA], Daphne[Active], Kristy[KIA]
- Friend in Sec Sch: Meiyan, Xinjie
Awesome Buddies
- in life: My Cousins wooT !
- in Bnet: gugu aka Twcom/Coffee , H@NNIB|E aka Hmm.. cannot tell wo later she chop me
Quote " Happy end of 2003 and lets wish 2004 ! "
hmm... being along day i had, since morning, a call was there to told me, this coming Sunday you had meeting, i was like wtf? -_-ZZZ so sad im so tired sunday still need to work oH ~! anyway after reaching home, storm call me and say " hey wanna catch a movie wif us [ Swirl aka Randy, Orcy aka.. nFI? , Zero aka Wei han, Orochi aka Gwen lover :D, Storm aka Kailun :O] then i asked him sure, wat's the movie , he replied " T.B plaza " [wat a moron] then i ask wat time, he say " School Of Rock " [ i was like HMMM... wtf is this guy] lastly i asked where is the place " he say 6.45pm " it's like omg? it's 6pm now u tell me 6.45pm and guess wat after we put down the phone he say, i must reach before 6.30pm LOL he think i live next door -_-ZZZZ anyway it's a very gosu show wif lots of funny stuff to cheer up me ^_^ when the show ending we are so lucky to meet up wif Jaron aka HMMM.. Forgot? but his someone who teach me how to play war3 ^_^ nice guy HEHE
quote of the show that really can make u laugh till ur jaw drop to the ground
" Read the lines between my 3 finger" ..|.. ^_^ ..|..
Anyway after the movie we had a little walk at the "park" ending up at T.B market to "eat" lol -_-ZZ 5 ppl watch Randy eating his dumb noodles lol anyway we had a little talk about how noobs people are in war3 lol and i even invite why can't we unroot our Aow/Aol and TP over wif it? lol HEHEHEH another day has passed 2 more days till new year, here by wish everyone out there that hasn't fulfil his dreams pls do so if able by tml? get a life out there and stop gaming ! GL ALL~
Quote " It takes two hand to clap, one heart to love and one mind to care"
Being very tired cause last nite or should i say this morning, someone by the name of Swirl aka Randy sms me at around 1.30am! omOGMGOg saying Hi how are u? WTF? dun he noe wat's call nite and day? -_-ZZZ anyway that's very sweet of him as im one of the lucky few GUYS tat he sms wif ^_^ another happy moment is when im busy at work Liling sms me oh.. that so sweet too *smile* thanks guys~! Heard from her that Su is sick or something , hope she is ok.. i ask my Healing Angel to bring lots of Healing pots over ^^; Get well so, and be like me Bouncing around HEHEHE Easter the bunny :p
i got over with all the sad stuff, time to get back myself, current training War3 solo in the noon, hope to be able to make a comeback, twice as good so WATCH OUT ! YO~! Easter the pro gamer ;O as wat randy say in my friendster lol :X
Quote " Time and tide wait for no man"
Poem : Alone
Four o'clock in the morning, Afraid to open my eyes
Another day of grief, A day of fear.
All alone I feel. I try to justify all the pain,
All of this guilt before my eyes.
Another day of confusion, A day of wondering.
Is it ever just going to go away?
All this pain that I feel And all this anger, is it going to stay?
Purity once had a name And beauty once had a face.
Life once had a meaning And once I was safe.
Once there was freedom And once I could laugh.
Happiness once was alive And once I had another half.
Once I shared her love Once I was by her side,
Once I felt I fitted, So quickly that died.
Her grace so great, Her beauty so vast,
All I ever wanted, Was for it to last.
Fate maybe had another plan, Or maybe she had another love,
But it all fell apart. The hand too big for the glove.
Now it's all died away, Happiness, joy, love; all memories.
Now I walk alone in this dark, dark world, With no light to guide my way.
Ten o'clock in the evening, Afraid of the nightmares.
Again my breathing stops. All I can do is stare into the night.
What is it that causes this feeling? Another night of crying,
A night of hiding, Alone once again.
My heart feels empty, And I can't cry another tear.
Another day wasted on insecurity, A day of wonder.
Is this ever going to end?
Hope to be back
One of the reason why i didn't blog about myself is because of some lately stuff that happen to me.. my mother's mother[grandmother] is in hositpal [coma] lets just pray she make it over the Chinese New Year? i dun wanna attend another funeral.. *sigh* Suddenly felt lost after losing one, scare to lose another.. still remember every sunday i will go to her house to visit her, talk to her about my life etc.. now.. *sigh* i smsed one of my friend asking her wat should i do to make myself happy, to be back again to my ownself, to forget all this bad things.. her reply is great.. maybe it's true that the only person who can make you laugh is the one that hurt you?
Meaningful sms
" Take life easy, god always say, there's more than it seem in life, take a rest if you need, run away if you've to, push yourself if you need to forget butcarry on life strongly"
" There is nothing you could do to bring the dead back, just start praying , hoping god would come upon my prayer and give you a miracle and when that does not happen, just cry just cry and at the same time tell yourself, everything has it's time to start and time to go, un take it too hard. try to loosen a little, she'll be happy if you could be "
Quote " Tears Can Break Even The Strongest Heart "
Dun feel like talkin about my stuff today so might just right some bullshit?
A twist of Lord Of the Ring :o
Three words for the girl under the moonlight, i miss you..
Seven for those who are there when im down, times are bad but thanks alot guys..
Nine for those dead, may god bless your family rest in peace now..
One for the dying person which need it most, time..
In the Planet Earth where Singapore lie,
One Word to rule them all, One word to find them,
One word to bring them all and in the darkness bind them,
One word to rule them all..
The one is LOVE
Daniel Bedingfield - If You're Not The One
If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all
I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?
I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life
I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side
I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
World is cruel, love is blind,
Lost in sadness, flame has died,
Time has pass, she's not mine,
If she is happy, i dun mind..
Everyone in this world is telling me how great thier Christmas is bah bah bah.. why am i the only soul that dun feel happy? try picture this romantic stuff, watched air plane come & go at our lovely airport in the middle of the night, going to east coast to watch sunrise, having a nice chocolate log cake and a big cute turkey.. but all this alone? i even went to the extend of giving a present to someone whom i never met for months, in return? sad to the power of two. Fated i dun feel like writing any blog about yesterday as i was in tears.. too much stuff happen out of sudden, out of my hand, out of the reach of anyone who i can talk to, who i can trust.. Fated
lets talk about life, everyone in school is evny about how good my life is, people driving you to school, and from home but did anyone know how unhappy and sad im? do you noe wat's call pressure? when u get 80 marks for ur exam, ur parents didn't even say "well done" but say why u got so many errors, why u dun get 90 etc.. when i get 100 marks, guess what, they say " maintain it".... Fated
lets talk about school life, friends... wat's friends? friends are those when they need you, they call you.. friends are those which call you in the middle of the night telling you " my boyfriend/girlfriend this and that.." friends are those in school only to ask you to treat them, as if it's thier right. in school, i try to be happy, be smiling laughing giggling all my way but deep down in that thick mask of mine.. sorrow, pain will anyone know that? if i were to have a heart attack at home, will anyone know that i die.. Fated
Relationship.. my first girlfriend pass away because of bone cancer, as i watch her pass away at the very bed of the hospital.. it's the first time i cried.. i still can't help to think of her.. why is life so bad.. she is only 16.. *sigh* the very person which tell me all kind of stuff and lies,which i believe.. until yesterday that i found out.. ALL ARE LIES Why dun you have to lie to make someone more pain, why dun you just say give it up, dun waste your time instead of saying, i need time.. Fated
World is Cruel, Love is Blind
Tis is the 2nd time i cried, not because of a person but because of my life. i just make up my mind of breaking up another friendship with another person as i think, it's time my bloody empty brain wakes up. Now im like a person without a soul, without joy to smile, without life..
H @ P P Y B | R T H D @ Y to MYSELF
The morning was very dull with the everyday setup of running of coffeeshop daily -_-ZZ , since yesterday my hp have been beeping like non stop? Thx everyone who sms me wishing me, special thx to "Xin Jie" which sms first ^_^; although my plan for today didn't work out nicely but at least it's not so dull -_-ZZ
When to Malaysia with a friend of mine, cuz... she is down? cuz.. im bored? ;o anyway we walk like hours till our legs break? but didn't buy any stuff lol -_-ZZ i did buy something which cause nearly $200 but i dun haf the courage to pass to that person and i did try to call/sms to her but.. *sigh* anyway we went to have our dinner at a place call "on the rock? " it's a place where food is cook on the rock by urself -_- very creative but the food is like 1/5 marks? and the silly rock take so long to cook a chicken chop when a grill take like 10 mins? it take like 50? -_-ZZz
some of those who sms me ;o
Xin Jie Harlo.. drop by to wish u! happy birthday, enjoy urself on this day n merry christmas too. take care [ first !]
Vincent " wish u happy birthday merry x mas % a happy new year [ some cheap , one shot wish so many ;o]
Hui Fang " happy birthday present " [ i asked her for a bday present , she gif me a sms present -_-;]
pr3d " i told santa to pass u the present hope ur house got a chimmy [ cute guy :p]
Tracy " hapi bday beng! [ my god sister lazy stew pig ]
Gwen " merry christmas jie haha.. stay happy and gay~ [ omg since when im a girl? ]
Kailun " happy birthday patrick, wish u merry christmas and enjoy ur day :D [ too bad i didn't :_(]
mod " happy merry christmas and bday " [hope ur ah ma is ok, god bless]
hmm.. i need to end this is getting no where ;o some sms are private ;o
Quote " Dun fear tomorrow when today isn't ending "
it's meant to be a joke but it's send by someone i missed alot but here is the joke..
Worker: " i asked my boss why i should work full day when it's Christmas eve! "
Boss : " because i pray to "dua pei gong" and not Jesus"
the reason why im sad is because of 3 words.. " just in case " gg no re no thx !
Anyway since im rather moodless? this is my favourite song by faye wong ost of FF8.
Eyes On Me
Whenever sand my songs, On the stage on my own.
Whenever said my words, Wishing they would be heard.
I Saw you smiling at me. Was it real or just my fantasy.
You've always be there in the corner.
Of this tiny little bar.
My last night here for you, same old song just once more.
My last night here with you, maybe yes maybe no.
I kind of liked it your way, how you shyly placed your eyes on me.
Did you ever know, that i had mine on you.
Darling, so there you are. With that look on your face.
As if you're never hurt, as if you're never down.
Shall i be the one for you, who pinches you softly but sure.
If frown is shown then, i will know that you are no dreamer.
So let me come to you, close as i wanted to be.
Close enough for me, to feel your heart beating fast.
And stay there as i whisper. How i loved your peaceful eyes on me.
Did you ever know, that i had mine on you.
Darling, so share with me, your love if you have enough.
Your tears if your holding back or pain if that's what it is.
How can i let you know. I'm one that the dress and the voice.
Just reach me out then you will know that you are no dreaming..
Darling, so there you are. With that look on your face.
As if you're never hurt, as if you're never down.
Shall i be the one for you, who pinches you softly but sure.
If frown is shown then, i will know that you are no dreamer
Should i be happy or sad after getting a sms .. *sigh*
This morning my mum just ask me, HMMM... tml ur bday? can take ang bao? [since my grandmother pass away] so i said " it's okie u can pay by cash/cheque/credit card ^_^ anyway dun really wish to celebrate, dun haf the mood -_- i somehow feel sad dunno why, being very moody this few days -_- period? 1 more day till im 20, will my bday wish come true? *ponder*
HMMM... when i wanted to play war3, 0 ppl online -_-ZZZ silly derrick is playing gb? and tell me to play wif him WTF? was on icq wif him n herman and was chatting hehe.. i wish my blog got eyes on me mp3 playing ^_^ will get it done soon i hope..
Quote " I love you, with all my heart yet you shattered it with just one word"
2 more days till Christmas
The 12 Days of Christmas
On the first day of Christmas
My true love sent to me
A partridge in a pear tree
On the second day of Christmas
My true love sent to me
Two turtle doves
And a partridge in a pear tree
On the third day of Christmas
My true love sent to me
Three French hens
Two turtle doves
And a partridge in a pear tree
On the fourth day of Christmas
My true love sent to me
Four calling birds, etc.
And a partridge in a pear tree
On the fifth day of Christmas
My true love sent to me
Five golden rings!
Four calling birds, etc.
And a partridge in a pear tree
On the [sixth - twelfth] day of Christmas
My true love sent to me
Six geese a laying
Seven swans a-swimming
Eight maids a-milking
Nine ladies dancing
10 lords a-leaping
11 pipers piping
12 drummers drumming
Five golden rings!
Four calling birds, etc.
And a partridge in a pear tree
HEHEHE nice template i haf ^_^; thx herman :O HEHHEEH
actually dun haf much to say since it's a daily routine for work? wake up normal time go back normal time, it's time to come, to the real world, Morp Pls bring me out of MATRIX !
Still missing someone badly, guess time dun heal wound? but make people forget? *sigh* Xmas is coming so is the New Year. My new year wish is rather dumb? i wish... to learn how to cycle T_T so i can go learn bike ^_^ then maybe MAYBE learn driving ;o then get a bike/car.. then...
Quote " Treat people the way you want to be treated" BUT ALSO " Treat people the way people treat you " [ i learn it myself. no point treating others good when they take for granted ]
*updates on dinner*
The place is at SunteCh - dunno wat river pearl. HEHEHE
The people who chop me for the dinner tonight's are !
. Mother
. Father
. 2nd Brother
. 1st Brother
. 2nd Brother ex gf [god daughter]
. 2nd Brother ex gf [ sister]
. 1st Brother gf
. Myself T_T
Very nice place , with very good host. Eat about 400++ quite cheap cuz it's bulfer [ wrong spelling? QoO] anyway they order like 8 buldda[another wrong spelling QoO] jump over the wall [ poor buldda :D] and a beijin duck [ wtf? got sg duck or not ;p]and stuff like 4 fish diff kind of cook, 3 plate sweet sour pork, 5 plate of raw fish, 1 fried rice, 1 set of crsytal bun, 800grams of prawns, 2 pots of drunken prawns, 1 pot of curry prawns, 2 set of fried prawns, 1 plate of black pepper beef, 2 set of lemon chicken, 1 plate of mix duck meat, 2 pot of drunken chicken, 4 plates of scalon[wrong spelling?] etc.. we haf 38947239473947 pudding lol other like 2 of each kind for each person HEHEHE , 2 jag of orange, 2 jag of coke and 1 jag of plain water ;o the person serving us is sooooooooo friendly ;O her name is Miss Tan Pong Mei ;o pretty too ; >~
Quote " Missing someone is like having a knife slowly pearing off your skin "
Until Tml~!
Didn't really blog yesterday as i was too moody cum angry with my mum.. old people tend to nag those rubbish stuff -_-ZZZ anyway after my work yesterday i went to take a nap and was awaken by the same people who wake me everytime ! *tmd* anyway me n her n a ex sec classmate went to Malaysia nfi Y but quite good as i brought some clothes ^_^ still thinking of how to pass some stuff to people as i was not allow to visit people home till 100 days later? HMMM... SoS !
As for today, plans are, Play play play and play ! Mum asked me to treat my brother n her n my dad ZZZZ waste money again! we booked some hotel for dinner hope it's cheap! my pocket are burning!
Quote " Cherish everyday as today is the last day you ever going to live, without tomorrow to fear "
hmm... getting up late again... 2nd time late for this week, im settle such a bad example .. mAn SOS ! anyway my aunties came over to tell me about the things to wear for this coming CNY [chinese new year] damm... i need to rebuy all my clothes.. all red,orange,yellow... -_-ZZZ. my mum said " like tat hor, all those money tat is red in ur wallet i also take lar since cannot use. lol -_-Z
Still dunno wat to do during my bday and christmas.. *sigh* moodless for everything... Everyone haf christmas wishes and bday wishes? i do.. and it's very easy, actually simple and cheap, i just wish that, that special someone will sms me.. *smile*
Quote " A man without dreams & hope, is a man without life"
hrm... last nite at around 8pm, stupid storm[kailun] ask me go watch lotr "return of the king" HEHEHHE i also look for ppl to watch , so happy we got tickets to watch ^^; very awesome show with many jokes, pls watch it i give it 5stars over 5stars damm solid !
Anyway for today, nothing new, after finish my work, went around the city hunting for some games like lotr "the return of the king" Rpg and War Of the Rings, HEHEH end up buying some silly rpgs games. One great news to all War3 players, my Dumb Silly Useless brother was creating a nick in Gunbound and passed all my items [in zicorn] over to his STUPID DUMB NICK.. OMG? my 3 weeks of Icetag and all my stuff gone -_-ZZZZ i think i quit playing GB and start learning my Art Of OrcS! TMD ! was too tired yesterday to scold him so... HE HENG !
After buying all my cds went to cut my hair ^_^ feel so good ;o think i will change the fonts in this blog, asking herman to help me ^_^ lalalala
Quote " When u love someone truly madly deeply dun expect the other party to love u back truly " l
ove can be cruel at times
Going to watch Lotr ~!
Everything is Late late late and more late -_-;
Waking up late? Banking late? Go home late? Bath late .. MAN THIS SARKS !
Talking about going home -_-; i left my keys at one of the coffeeshop Nfi which one -_-ZZZ from 1pm to 5.45pm? i was seating outside my house waiting for anyone of my families to return home, how great? brother got hp, never on, Mum and dad dunno go where -_-ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ seat until i fall asleep outside my house ! how GREAT? i need to plan what i need to do soon or else i will be wasting my time doing nothing again ! damm~~!!!
Quote " What of you is making us love you?
It is your fresh beauty in bloom out of humbleness.
It is your sweet heart supporting friends and stopping fighting.
It is your strength not be discouraged even when painful.
We will surely help you, if you ask for someone's help.
Without reserve, be helped, stand up, and progress to your wish.
Without fail, the train of your wish will be longing for you.
"
after a long week break, going bk to work means PAIN OHHHHH backache man... oh.. firstly, i would like to thx this great girl ^_^ Miss SulIN~! for helping me fix lots of stuff although i never met her before ;o thx for helping me with the "shoutout" now u all can put in ur comments More Gb ~! laterz
Believe in yourself and in your dream
Though impossible things may seem
Someday, somehow you'll get through
To the goal you have in view
Mountains fall and seas divide
Before the one who in his stride
Takes a hard road by day
Sweeping obstacles away
Believe in yourself all the way!
Having a very moody mood, didn't went to work hehehe no mood -_-Z anyway talk to a friend of mine and she told me alittle story which make some sense but she didn't finish it as her friend went to her house in the mid of the nite O_O. hehehe so i just finish the story myself ^^;
In ur life, there will be 4 people which u will love,
1st) urself
2nd) the one which u love
3rd) the one that love you
4th) the one that's going to be with you
Most of the time, people dun love themself , because of some reason. Either they think they look ugly? poor? or always think they are not good enough for the other party.. In life, Most of the time the one which u love is always the one that hurts u the most and will never be the "4th" party.. and the "3rd" party which love u is always not the one u love most.. But because of the "2nd" party which hurts u, u tend to grow stronger and able to accept loves in another way.. that's how the "4th" party came in.. it's mostly not the one u love firstly and not the one that love you at the start.
Quote "if you can bring happiness to just one people, hopefully that one person begins with yourself "
Hrm.. getting up at around 6am to get ready and went over to my Ah Pei [ 1st uncle ] house to meet and gather up with the rest of my uncles/aunts. Went back to the place where we burn the coffin + corpse to collect the ash/bones of my ah ma. On the way there lots of ghost story told by all my uncles hehehe :p if keen ask me when i still remember =X anyway when we reach quite alot of people are there [ most we dunno lol -_-; all my 6th uncle godson/brother anyway after we finish taking the bones/ash we went to a special room to make the bones into powder form to put into a "vase" ? [ nfi wat it call hehehe] anyway very tired haven't really sleep for days HMMM.. monday to thursday i never slept. Friday to saturday i never slept, last nite or should i say this morning [ since i play gb till 2 am :D] so... HMMM 6 days i slept 4 hours? PrO? :D
Quote " If i lived through tomorow,
you wouldnt care about how much i love you
If i die tomorow,
you would feel bad about how much i love you
If i die today,
you would neva know how much i love you "
at around 12am, we went to "burn the paper house" cause a huge firestorm woohoo~! big big fire, quite happening cause
we form a big circle and start knee down , and standing up for 230497320437024 times lol the night was very very cold lol thx to the fire hehe keep us warm ;)
hrm.. haven't slept for another 2 days make me very very sleepy + tired. Lots of happening stuff happen today, My cousin and i was playing "briges" a kind of poker card game lol, they teach me 1 game , i win them 11-1? wtf? lol anyway at around 10am the " cheer leading team " arrive , those very noisy one -_-; wif the gong and drums GONG GONG GONG GONG for hours poor us need to knee down for 3 hours -_-;
Soon it's the "last" walk with the dead, as we march out of the funeral to the road [cause a big jam cause of the huge number ! our side got 77 people, + 2 gang nearly 150?] very cold walk cuz we need to march without our shoe/slipper -_-; After marching for about 30min? we went to a place far east to burn the coffin and place it near a temple beside "CMPB" next to my Ah Gong Tome.
After tat came back home wahhhh so sleepy -_-ZZZ Laters Guys~!
Quote "Early Bird Get The Best Worm But It's Always The Second Mouse That Get The Cheese ^_^"
Im like a frog in a well yesterday, lots of stuff i dunno when people ask me lol, how old is ur ah ma? wat's her name? how many grandsons/daughter does she haf? wat time is the "burning of house" lol everything people ask me i dunno -_-;
During last nite evening, a group of 40 Nun and monks came to chant for my ah ma, during tat time, all of us [ my ah ma 7 sons, 4 daughter, 18 grandson/daughter , 1 grand grandson] need to seat/stand/knee down to chant wif them. the book is 49 pages only, 1 pages got 29482390483048302480234803284032840238 words, 1 word they chant for 10 mins? at one part we need to standup/knee down for 129834209480234803840380 time -_-; some tiring [never slept for 4 days -_-Z] the best part is although they talk in "chinese" i didn't get wat they say at all. Our funeral is starting to turn to become a gambling den, 3 mahjong table, 4 poker 2 blackjack and many more.. until at around 2am 2 police car came down and told us to lower down our volume lol -_-; he never say stop gambling HEHEHEH maybe he got scare? some 100++ ? vs 2 ? lol
Today is the last night, the longest night, lots of stuff to do and prepare.. i miss someone alot..
Quote " if you love someone, set it free , if she return she is yours to take but if she didn't ,
congrats and bless her cause if she is happy, i bet you will be :) "
today drank out my energy staying up for days? until now i haven't slept -_-; so tired and sleepy.. oh.. anyway nothing much since the morning , was folding hills of gold/silver papers , and talking about the past how, ah ma was like, how everyone was like and talk talk talk until me ZZZZ ( how bad i was ) -_-Z at last im free and able to type EHEHHE few more days be4 the funeral ends and i heard my CNY ( Chinese New Year) was burn cuz can't celebrate, there go all my ANG BAO! thanks to those who are concern about me and very sorry to Herman that i can't play the league. SORRIE !
Quote " Never say fail till u try, Fail are for failure who fail to try"
hrm.. now at my cousin house helping out, last 2 days was hell? never sleep + lots of tiring stuff to do, now is like a zombie typing my blog..
being awhile since someone i know passed away, since 1999[ my grandfather] now my grandmother.. it's sad but life still have to go on.. so i here wish to thanks few people for encouraging me and comforting me, thx.. special thx to Kris Ong, Mei Yan, LiLing , and HoLam for their blessing *smile*
lots of things happen during the first night of my grandmother death, i pity my dad for
a) u noe he haf to call up sons/daughters of my grandmother telling them to come to the funeral [7 son 4 daughter]
b) they came because for the $$$ -_-;
c) the daughter tat my grandmother dotes to most came late? we are suppose to meet at 9.30am? she came at 2pm? GREAT?
d) those tat came didn't even stay for the first nite + 2nd nite wtf ?
anyway my dad say grandmother wasn't everyone favourite because she love to gamble alot BUT she never hit/scold his son/daugther/grandson/granddaugther be4 and she dotes everyone alot only bad thing is gambling -_-;
Quotes " It take a min to forgive someone but take a lifetime to ask for forgiveness" same thing apply to love *smile*
Didn't slept the whole nite, was thinking about my grandmother.. *sigh* why does people always regret when they miss or lost something? Although i didn't really love her alot, she is still a nice lady, may god bless her in heaven. I also think if i suddenly pass away, will anyone noe tat im gone? will anyone miss me? will anyone think about me? will people cry for me?
the pain of losing someone u love is big, the pain of losing is soul is greater so my advise is treasure everything and anything in life and not to regret until it's gone..
i wanted to talk to someone last nite but didn't find the courage to call.. tat person, scare tat person might be too tired?
Quote "Sometimes the only person that can make u smile is the one that hurt u the most "
After i was waiting to play Gunbound, the sever was down - -;. anyway i log into warcraft3 to play and chat up wif my friends and a call suddenly came, my dad n mum rushed home, bathed and call me to go out, i asked why? ......
my grandmother just pass away..
Getting up 4am daily is no joke, very tiring and when ur so tired u still haf to count hills of money is so.. oh ~~;, anyway back at home now after a hot bath is so refreshing ^^v Need to find one day to buy my ps2 -_-; planning to buy it since Nov? now is dec -_-; im so lazy.. anyway i read alot of books when im free on the road to other places, so here is some fact~
Question : if u noe a pregnant woman who had 8 kids already, 3 of whom were deaf, 2 blind, one mentally disabled and herself had syphilis, whould u recommend she had an abortion? before u decide, have a think about this one too :
it's time to elect a new world leader and only ur vote counts, here are the facts about the three leading candidates,
a) Associates with crooked politicians, conults with astrologists, has 2 mistresses, chain smokes and drink 8- 0 Martinis/day
b)has been kicked out of office twice, sleeps until noon, used opium in college and drinks a quart of whisky every evening.
c)a highly decorated war hero, vegetarian, doesn't smoke, drinks an occasional beer and has never cheated on his wife.
which of these candidates will u pick most likely? C?
Answer : A) is Frankin D. Roosevelt [ USA ex leader]
B) is Winston Churchill [ British ex leader]
C) is Adolf Hitler [ HAHAHAH dun tell me u dunno this guy?]
OH and if your answer to the abortion question was "yes" you just killed Beethoven. *(Da, Na, Na, Naaaaaa..... )
this is a true fact and this also tell us,
Quote "never judge things by it's book, or cover. : ) "
My topic is rather dumb? true love is like ghost -_-; well it have some meaning, everybody is talking about it, but few people have seen it, just like love, not everyone have found true love or tasted it.
Start of with thanking? Geez Thx to Sulin [ Ezr-Nilus] for giving me little advise about how to set up, thx to Liling [ sulin sister] for giving me the webby~
A Sunny sunday, being up since 5am? playing Gb[ gunbound] for sooooooooooooo long -_- abit lifeless.. 3 more week till im 20 ^_^ so happy, excited but also scare wat it will be like, cuz i plan to go hk to celebrate it T_T now got to replan everything from scatch :_( i should start brushing up my warcraft3 skill -_- or else i will pull down herman HEHEHE but im so lazy~ god help mE~!
Easter aka Patrick
25
1998 to 1999 WCG Starcraft Champ
2001 to 2001 WCG Warcraft3 Champ
[[ The Wishlist ]]
New life!
If only you could know me better
Rich, Smart & wish i knew you 2 years ago.
To Be In your Arms "Ms Lee"
To know how to drive
To get my degree
To company her to Malaysia or any country
Get more friends
[[ Don't talk crap, it's fucking rude ]]
Tagboard here.(Duh!)
Summary of my life
1) I only cried 2 time in my life [after primary school]
1st is the death of my friend/buddy/lover/gf watever you wan to call. [Kristy Khoo Peipei, 15]
2nd is the things im going though the past few weeks. [death of grandmother, coma of 2nd grandmother etc..]
2) I'm not a bad manner person in real life [read BADMANNER] i only act or make myself a bad manner.
3) I'm Super extra shy in real life. [If i dunno you, i will not talk to you unless you ask me some stuff]
4) I hate 3 kind of person, a)Late Commer b)Complaint Queen c)Liar
5) I'm very sentimental, people who give me a card/present i haven't use yet lol so rememeber to pass me food !
6) I had no idea how i get so high marks for my English when it's so -_-ZZZ
7) I had no idea why i fail my chinese so badly when i talk so well :O
8) My favourite subject is Math but nfi why i get so high for Sci base subject.
9) I had 2 brother who are very respected guys.
10) When i was in primary one, i burn the whole bird farm [roosted birds Yum]
11) When i was in primary two, i cut a girl hair 30cm long while having Art lesson.
12) When i was in primary four, i asked 4 pretty sweet girls to help me do homework till the teacher found out [mid term]13) When i was in primary four, a P.E teacher was fired for hitting my head and making it bleed wif a watch
14) When i was in Sec sch, i being YEARS of Chairman!
15) Fall in love with FF8 , the song the game EVERYTHING !
16) I forgive easily but never forget.
17) I got 6 unopen Nokia handphones at home.
18) I love to watch movies, love to eat ice cream, love to hug, and love to receive gift/sms
19) Girls tend to talk to me about their secrets nfi why?
20) a break true of myself ! the things i like :p
Favourite:
- Food: any western food
- Drinks: Sugercane, watermelon, long island tea, tonic coke, passive coke and many more?
Best:
- Friend i had in life: Pamela Huang
- Friend i had [met] in Bnet: Swirl aka Randy, Pr3d aka Yi Zhong, Storm aka Kailun
- Friend i had [not met yet :p] in Bnet: Greenie aka Liling [ she rox ] Gwen aka Liping and lastly Su aka Su?
- Friend in Pri Sch: Feng Ling[MIA], Angela[MIA], Daphne[Active], Kristy[KIA]
- Friend in Sec Sch: Meiyan, Xinjie
Awesome Buddies
- in life: My Cousins wooT !
- in Bnet: gugu aka Twcom/Coffee , H@NNIB|E aka Hmm.. cannot tell wo later she chop me
Quote " Happy end of 2003 and lets wish 2004 ! "
hmm... being along day i had, since morning, a call was there to told me, this coming Sunday you had meeting, i was like wtf? -_-ZZZ so sad im so tired sunday still need to work oH ~! anyway after reaching home, storm call me and say " hey wanna catch a movie wif us [ Swirl aka Randy, Orcy aka.. nFI? , Zero aka Wei han, Orochi aka Gwen lover :D, Storm aka Kailun :O] then i asked him sure, wat's the movie , he replied " T.B plaza " [wat a moron] then i ask wat time, he say " School Of Rock " [ i was like HMMM... wtf is this guy] lastly i asked where is the place " he say 6.45pm " it's like omg? it's 6pm now u tell me 6.45pm and guess wat after we put down the phone he say, i must reach before 6.30pm LOL he think i live next door -_-ZZZZ anyway it's a very gosu show wif lots of funny stuff to cheer up me ^_^ when the show ending we are so lucky to meet up wif Jaron aka HMMM.. Forgot? but his someone who teach me how to play war3 ^_^ nice guy HEHE
quote of the show that really can make u laugh till ur jaw drop to the ground
" Read the lines between my 3 finger" ..|.. ^_^ ..|..
Anyway after the movie we had a little walk at the "park" ending up at T.B market to "eat" lol -_-ZZ 5 ppl watch Randy eating his dumb noodles lol anyway we had a little talk about how noobs people are in war3 lol and i even invite why can't we unroot our Aow/Aol and TP over wif it? lol HEHEHEH another day has passed 2 more days till new year, here by wish everyone out there that hasn't fulfil his dreams pls do so if able by tml? get a life out there and stop gaming ! GL ALL~
Quote " It takes two hand to clap, one heart to love and one mind to care"
Being very tired cause last nite or should i say this morning, someone by the name of Swirl aka Randy sms me at around 1.30am! omOGMGOg saying Hi how are u? WTF? dun he noe wat's call nite and day? -_-ZZZ anyway that's very sweet of him as im one of the lucky few GUYS tat he sms wif ^_^ another happy moment is when im busy at work Liling sms me oh.. that so sweet too *smile* thanks guys~! Heard from her that Su is sick or something , hope she is ok.. i ask my Healing Angel to bring lots of Healing pots over ^^; Get well so, and be like me Bouncing around HEHEHE Easter the bunny :p
i got over with all the sad stuff, time to get back myself, current training War3 solo in the noon, hope to be able to make a comeback, twice as good so WATCH OUT ! YO~! Easter the pro gamer ;O as wat randy say in my friendster lol :X
Quote " Time and tide wait for no man"
Poem : Alone
Four o'clock in the morning, Afraid to open my eyes
Another day of grief, A day of fear.
All alone I feel. I try to justify all the pain,
All of this guilt before my eyes.
Another day of confusion, A day of wondering.
Is it ever just going to go away?
All this pain that I feel And all this anger, is it going to stay?
Purity once had a name And beauty once had a face.
Life once had a meaning And once I was safe.
Once there was freedom And once I could laugh.
Happiness once was alive And once I had another half.
Once I shared her love Once I was by her side,
Once I felt I fitted, So quickly that died.
Her grace so great, Her beauty so vast,
All I ever wanted, Was for it to last.
Fate maybe had another plan, Or maybe she had another love,
But it all fell apart. The hand too big for the glove.
Now it's all died away, Happiness, joy, love; all memories.
Now I walk alone in this dark, dark world, With no light to guide my way.
Ten o'clock in the evening, Afraid of the nightmares.
Again my breathing stops. All I can do is stare into the night.
What is it that causes this feeling? Another night of crying,
A night of hiding, Alone once again.
My heart feels empty, And I can't cry another tear.
Another day wasted on insecurity, A day of wonder.
Is this ever going to end?
Hope to be back
One of the reason why i didn't blog about myself is because of some lately stuff that happen to me.. my mother's mother[grandmother] is in hositpal [coma] lets just pray she make it over the Chinese New Year? i dun wanna attend another funeral.. *sigh* Suddenly felt lost after losing one, scare to lose another.. still remember every sunday i will go to her house to visit her, talk to her about my life etc.. now.. *sigh* i smsed one of my friend asking her wat should i do to make myself happy, to be back again to my ownself, to forget all this bad things.. her reply is great.. maybe it's true that the only person who can make you laugh is the one that hurt you?
Meaningful sms
" Take life easy, god always say, there's more than it seem in life, take a rest if you need, run away if you've to, push yourself if you need to forget butcarry on life strongly"
" There is nothing you could do to bring the dead back, just start praying , hoping god would come upon my prayer and give you a miracle and when that does not happen, just cry just cry and at the same time tell yourself, everything has it's time to start and time to go, un take it too hard. try to loosen a little, she'll be happy if you could be "
Quote " Tears Can Break Even The Strongest Heart "
Dun feel like talkin about my stuff today so might just right some bullshit?
A twist of Lord Of the Ring :o
Three words for the girl under the moonlight, i miss you..
Seven for those who are there when im down, times are bad but thanks alot guys..
Nine for those dead, may god bless your family rest in peace now..
One for the dying person which need it most, time..
In the Planet Earth where Singapore lie,
One Word to rule them all, One word to find them,
One word to bring them all and in the darkness bind them,
One word to rule them all..
The one is LOVE
Daniel Bedingfield - If You're Not The One
If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all
I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?
I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life
I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side
I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
World is cruel, love is blind,
Lost in sadness, flame has died,
Time has pass, she's not mine,
If she is happy, i dun mind..
Everyone in this world is telling me how great thier Christmas is bah bah bah.. why am i the only soul that dun feel happy? try picture this romantic stuff, watched air plane come & go at our lovely airport in the middle of the night, going to east coast to watch sunrise, having a nice chocolate log cake and a big cute turkey.. but all this alone? i even went to the extend of giving a present to someone whom i never met for months, in return? sad to the power of two. Fated i dun feel like writing any blog about yesterday as i was in tears.. too much stuff happen out of sudden, out of my hand, out of the reach of anyone who i can talk to, who i can trust.. Fated
lets talk about life, everyone in school is evny about how good my life is, people driving you to school, and from home but did anyone know how unhappy and sad im? do you noe wat's call pressure? when u get 80 marks for ur exam, ur parents didn't even say "well done" but say why u got so many errors, why u dun get 90 etc.. when i get 100 marks, guess what, they say " maintain it".... Fated
lets talk about school life, friends... wat's friends? friends are those when they need you, they call you.. friends are those which call you in the middle of the night telling you " my boyfriend/girlfriend this and that.." friends are those in school only to ask you to treat them, as if it's thier right. in school, i try to be happy, be smiling laughing giggling all my way but deep down in that thick mask of mine.. sorrow, pain will anyone know that? if i were to have a heart attack at home, will anyone know that i die.. Fated
Relationship.. my first girlfriend pass away because of bone cancer, as i watch her pass away at the very bed of the hospital.. it's the first time i cried.. i still can't help to think of her.. why is life so bad.. she is only 16.. *sigh* the very person which tell me all kind of stuff and lies,which i believe.. until yesterday that i found out.. ALL ARE LIES Why dun you have to lie to make someone more pain, why dun you just say give it up, dun waste your time instead of saying, i need time.. Fated
World is Cruel, Love is Blind
Tis is the 2nd time i cried, not because of a person but because of my life. i just make up my mind of breaking up another friendship with another person as i think, it's time my bloody empty brain wakes up. Now im like a person without a soul, without joy to smile, without life..
H @ P P Y B | R T H D @ Y to MYSELF
The morning was very dull with the everyday setup of running of coffeeshop daily -_-ZZ , since yesterday my hp have been beeping like non stop? Thx everyone who sms me wishing me, special thx to "Xin Jie" which sms first ^_^; although my plan for today didn't work out nicely but at least it's not so dull -_-ZZ
When to Malaysia with a friend of mine, cuz... she is down? cuz.. im bored? ;o anyway we walk like hours till our legs break? but didn't buy any stuff lol -_-ZZ i did buy something which cause nearly $200 but i dun haf the courage to pass to that person and i did try to call/sms to her but.. *sigh* anyway we went to have our dinner at a place call "on the rock? " it's a place where food is cook on the rock by urself -_- very creative but the food is like 1/5 marks? and the silly rock take so long to cook a chicken chop when a grill take like 10 mins? it take like 50? -_-ZZz
some of those who sms me ;o
Xin Jie Harlo.. drop by to wish u! happy birthday, enjoy urself on this day n merry christmas too. take care [ first !]
Vincent " wish u happy birthday merry x mas % a happy new year [ some cheap , one shot wish so many ;o]
Hui Fang " happy birthday present " [ i asked her for a bday present , she gif me a sms present -_-;]
pr3d " i told santa to pass u the present hope ur house got a chimmy [ cute guy :p]
Tracy " hapi bday beng! [ my god sister lazy stew pig ]
Gwen " merry christmas jie haha.. stay happy and gay~ [ omg since when im a girl? ]
Kailun " happy birthday patrick, wish u merry christmas and enjoy ur day :D [ too bad i didn't :_(]
mod " happy merry christmas and bday " [hope ur ah ma is ok, god bless]
hmm.. i need to end this is getting no where ;o some sms are private ;o
Quote " Dun fear tomorrow when today isn't ending "
it's meant to be a joke but it's send by someone i missed alot but here is the joke..
Worker: " i asked my boss why i should work full day when it's Christmas eve! "
Boss : " because i pray to "dua pei gong" and not Jesus"
the reason why im sad is because of 3 words.. " just in case " gg no re no thx !
Anyway since im rather moodless? this is my favourite song by faye wong ost of FF8.
Eyes On Me
Whenever sand my songs, On the stage on my own.
Whenever said my words, Wishing they would be heard.
I Saw you smiling at me. Was it real or just my fantasy.
You've always be there in the corner.
Of this tiny little bar.
My last night here for you, same old song just once more.
My last night here with you, maybe yes maybe no.
I kind of liked it your way, how you shyly placed your eyes on me.
Did you ever know, that i had mine on you.
Darling, so there you are. With that look on your face.
As if you're never hurt, as if you're never down.
Shall i be the one for you, who pinches you softly but sure.
If frown is shown then, i will know that you are no dreamer.
So let me come to you, close as i wanted to be.
Close enough for me, to feel your heart beating fast.
And stay there as i whisper. How i loved your peaceful eyes on me.
Did you ever know, that i had mine on you.
Darling, so share with me, your love if you have enough.
Your tears if your holding back or pain if that's what it is.
How can i let you know. I'm one that the dress and the voice.
Just reach me out then you will know that you are no dreaming..
Darling, so there you are. With that look on your face.
As if you're never hurt, as if you're never down.
Shall i be the one for you, who pinches you softly but sure.
If frown is shown then, i will know that you are no dreamer
Should i be happy or sad after getting a sms .. *sigh*
This morning my mum just ask me, HMMM... tml ur bday? can take ang bao? [since my grandmother pass away] so i said " it's okie u can pay by cash/cheque/credit card ^_^ anyway dun really wish to celebrate, dun haf the mood -_- i somehow feel sad dunno why, being very moody this few days -_- period? 1 more day till im 20, will my bday wish come true? *ponder*
HMMM... when i wanted to play war3, 0 ppl online -_-ZZZ silly derrick is playing gb? and tell me to play wif him WTF? was on icq wif him n herman and was chatting hehe.. i wish my blog got eyes on me mp3 playing ^_^ will get it done soon i hope..
Quote " I love you, with all my heart yet you shattered it with just one word"
2 more days till Christmas
The 12 Days of Christmas
On the first day of Christmas
My true love sent to me
A partridge in a pear tree
On the second day of Christmas
My true love sent to me
Two turtle doves
And a partridge in a pear tree
On the third day of Christmas
My true love sent to me
Three French hens
Two turtle doves
And a partridge in a pear tree
On the fourth day of Christmas
My true love sent to me
Four calling birds, etc.
And a partridge in a pear tree
On the fifth day of Christmas
My true love sent to me
Five golden rings!
Four calling birds, etc.
And a partridge in a pear tree
On the [sixth - twelfth] day of Christmas
My true love sent to me
Six geese a laying
Seven swans a-swimming
Eight maids a-milking
Nine ladies dancing
10 lords a-leaping
11 pipers piping
12 drummers drumming
Five golden rings!
Four calling birds, etc.
And a partridge in a pear tree
HEHEHE nice template i haf ^_^; thx herman :O HEHHEEH
actually dun haf much to say since it's a daily routine for work? wake up normal time go back normal time, it's time to come, to the real world, Morp Pls bring me out of MATRIX !
Still missing someone badly, guess time dun heal wound? but make people forget? *sigh* Xmas is coming so is the New Year. My new year wish is rather dumb? i wish... to learn how to cycle T_T so i can go learn bike ^_^ then maybe MAYBE learn driving ;o then get a bike/car.. then...
Quote " Treat people the way you want to be treated" BUT ALSO " Treat people the way people treat you " [ i learn it myself. no point treating others good when they take for granted ]
*updates on dinner*
The place is at SunteCh - dunno wat river pearl. HEHEHE
The people who chop me for the dinner tonight's are !
. Mother
. Father
. 2nd Brother
. 1st Brother
. 2nd Brother ex gf [god daughter]
. 2nd Brother ex gf [ sister]
. 1st Brother gf
. Myself T_T
Very nice place , with very good host. Eat about 400++ quite cheap cuz it's bulfer [ wrong spelling? QoO] anyway they order like 8 buldda[another wrong spelling QoO] jump over the wall [ poor buldda :D] and a beijin duck [ wtf? got sg duck or not ;p]and stuff like 4 fish diff kind of cook, 3 plate sweet sour pork, 5 plate of raw fish, 1 fried rice, 1 set of crsytal bun, 800grams of prawns, 2 pots of drunken prawns, 1 pot of curry prawns, 2 set of fried prawns, 1 plate of black pepper beef, 2 set of lemon chicken, 1 plate of mix duck meat, 2 pot of drunken chicken, 4 plates of scalon[wrong spelling?] etc.. we haf 38947239473947 pudding lol other like 2 of each kind for each person HEHEHE , 2 jag of orange, 2 jag of coke and 1 jag of plain water ;o the person serving us is sooooooooo friendly ;O her name is Miss Tan Pong Mei ;o pretty too ; >~
Quote " Missing someone is like having a knife slowly pearing off your skin "
Until Tml~!
Didn't really blog yesterday as i was too moody cum angry with my mum.. old people tend to nag those rubbish stuff -_-ZZZ anyway after my work yesterday i went to take a nap and was awaken by the same people who wake me everytime ! *tmd* anyway me n her n a ex sec classmate went to Malaysia nfi Y but quite good as i brought some clothes ^_^ still thinking of how to pass some stuff to people as i was not allow to visit people home till 100 days later? HMMM... SoS !
As for today, plans are, Play play play and play ! Mum asked me to treat my brother n her n my dad ZZZZ waste money again! we booked some hotel for dinner hope it's cheap! my pocket are burning!
Quote " Cherish everyday as today is the last day you ever going to live, without tomorrow to fear "
hmm... getting up late again... 2nd time late for this week, im settle such a bad example .. mAn SOS ! anyway my aunties came over to tell me about the things to wear for this coming CNY [chinese new year] damm... i need to rebuy all my clothes.. all red,orange,yellow... -_-ZZZ. my mum said " like tat hor, all those money tat is red in ur wallet i also take lar since cannot use. lol -_-Z
Still dunno wat to do during my bday and christmas.. *sigh* moodless for everything... Everyone haf christmas wishes and bday wishes? i do.. and it's very easy, actually simple and cheap, i just wish that, that special someone will sms me.. *smile*
Quote " A man without dreams & hope, is a man without life"
hrm... last nite at around 8pm, stupid storm[kailun] ask me go watch lotr "return of the king" HEHEHHE i also look for ppl to watch , so happy we got tickets to watch ^^; very awesome show with many jokes, pls watch it i give it 5stars over 5stars damm solid !
Anyway for today, nothing new, after finish my work, went around the city hunting for some games like lotr "the return of the king" Rpg and War Of the Rings, HEHEH end up buying some silly rpgs games. One great news to all War3 players, my Dumb Silly Useless brother was creating a nick in Gunbound and passed all my items [in zicorn] over to his STUPID DUMB NICK.. OMG? my 3 weeks of Icetag and all my stuff gone -_-ZZZZ i think i quit playing GB and start learning my Art Of OrcS! TMD ! was too tired yesterday to scold him so... HE HENG !
After buying all my cds went to cut my hair ^_^ feel so good ;o think i will change the fonts in this blog, asking herman to help me ^_^ lalalala
Quote " When u love someone truly madly deeply dun expect the other party to love u back truly " l
ove can be cruel at times
Going to watch Lotr ~!
Everything is Late late late and more late -_-;
Waking up late? Banking late? Go home late? Bath late .. MAN THIS SARKS !
Talking about going home -_-; i left my keys at one of the coffeeshop Nfi which one -_-ZZZ from 1pm to 5.45pm? i was seating outside my house waiting for anyone of my families to return home, how great? brother got hp, never on, Mum and dad dunno go where -_-ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ seat until i fall asleep outside my house ! how GREAT? i need to plan what i need to do soon or else i will be wasting my time doing nothing again ! damm~~!!!
Quote " What of you is making us love you?
It is your fresh beauty in bloom out of humbleness.
It is your sweet heart supporting friends and stopping fighting.
It is your strength not be discouraged even when painful.
We will surely help you, if you ask for someone's help.
Without reserve, be helped, stand up, and progress to your wish.
Without fail, the train of your wish will be longing for you.
"
after a long week break, going bk to work means PAIN OHHHHH backache man... oh.. firstly, i would like to thx this great girl ^_^ Miss SulIN~! for helping me fix lots of stuff although i never met her before ;o thx for helping me with the "shoutout" now u all can put in ur comments More Gb ~! laterz
Believe in yourself and in your dream
Though impossible things may seem
Someday, somehow you'll get through
To the goal you have in view
Mountains fall and seas divide
Before the one who in his stride
Takes a hard road by day
Sweeping obstacles away
Believe in yourself all the way!
Having a very moody mood, didn't went to work hehehe no mood -_-Z anyway talk to a friend of mine and she told me alittle story which make some sense but she didn't finish it as her friend went to her house in the mid of the nite O_O. hehehe so i just finish the story myself ^^;
In ur life, there will be 4 people which u will love,
1st) urself
2nd) the one which u love
3rd) the one that love you
4th) the one that's going to be with you
Most of the time, people dun love themself , because of some reason. Either they think they look ugly? poor? or always think they are not good enough for the other party.. In life, Most of the time the one which u love is always the one that hurts u the most and will never be the "4th" party.. and the "3rd" party which love u is always not the one u love most.. But because of the "2nd" party which hurts u, u tend to grow stronger and able to accept loves in another way.. that's how the "4th" party came in.. it's mostly not the one u love firstly and not the one that love you at the start.
Quote "if you can bring happiness to just one people, hopefully that one person begins with yourself "
Hrm.. getting up at around 6am to get ready and went over to my Ah Pei [ 1st uncle ] house to meet and gather up with the rest of my uncles/aunts. Went back to the place where we burn the coffin + corpse to collect the ash/bones of my ah ma. On the way there lots of ghost story told by all my uncles hehehe :p if keen ask me when i still remember =X anyway when we reach quite alot of people are there [ most we dunno lol -_-; all my 6th uncle godson/brother anyway after we finish taking the bones/ash we went to a special room to make the bones into powder form to put into a "vase" ? [ nfi wat it call hehehe] anyway very tired haven't really sleep for days HMMM.. monday to thursday i never slept. Friday to saturday i never slept, last nite or should i say this morning [ since i play gb till 2 am :D] so... HMMM 6 days i slept 4 hours? PrO? :D
Quote " If i lived through tomorow,
you wouldnt care about how much i love you
If i die tomorow,
you would feel bad about how much i love you
If i die today,
you would neva know how much i love you "
at around 12am, we went to "burn the paper house" cause a huge firestorm woohoo~! big big fire, quite happening cause
we form a big circle and start knee down , and standing up for 230497320437024 times lol the night was very very cold lol thx to the fire hehe keep us warm ;)
hrm.. haven't slept for another 2 days make me very very sleepy + tired. Lots of happening stuff happen today, My cousin and i was playing "briges" a kind of poker card game lol, they teach me 1 game , i win them 11-1? wtf? lol anyway at around 10am the " cheer leading team " arrive , those very noisy one -_-; wif the gong and drums GONG GONG GONG GONG for hours poor us need to knee down for 3 hours -_-;
Soon it's the "last" walk with the dead, as we march out of the funeral to the road [cause a big jam cause of the huge number ! our side got 77 people, + 2 gang nearly 150?] very cold walk cuz we need to march without our shoe/slipper -_-; After marching for about 30min? we went to a place far east to burn the coffin and place it near a temple beside "CMPB" next to my Ah Gong Tome.
After tat came back home wahhhh so sleepy -_-ZZZ Laters Guys~!
Quote "Early Bird Get The Best Worm But It's Always The Second Mouse That Get The Cheese ^_^"
Im like a frog in a well yesterday, lots of stuff i dunno when people ask me lol, how old is ur ah ma? wat's her name? how many grandsons/daughter does she haf? wat time is the "burning of house" lol everything people ask me i dunno -_-;
During last nite evening, a group of 40 Nun and monks came to chant for my ah ma, during tat time, all of us [ my ah ma 7 sons, 4 daughter, 18 grandson/daughter , 1 grand grandson] need to seat/stand/knee down to chant wif them. the book is 49 pages only, 1 pages got 29482390483048302480234803284032840238 words, 1 word they chant for 10 mins? at one part we need to standup/knee down for 129834209480234803840380 time -_-; some tiring [never slept for 4 days -_-Z] the best part is although they talk in "chinese" i didn't get wat they say at all. Our funeral is starting to turn to become a gambling den, 3 mahjong table, 4 poker 2 blackjack and many more.. until at around 2am 2 police car came down and told us to lower down our volume lol -_-; he never say stop gambling HEHEHEH maybe he got scare? some 100++ ? vs 2 ? lol
Today is the last night, the longest night, lots of stuff to do and prepare.. i miss someone alot..
Quote " if you love someone, set it free , if she return she is yours to take but if she didn't ,
congrats and bless her cause if she is happy, i bet you will be :) "
today drank out my energy staying up for days? until now i haven't slept -_-; so tired and sleepy.. oh.. anyway nothing much since the morning , was folding hills of gold/silver papers , and talking about the past how, ah ma was like, how everyone was like and talk talk talk until me ZZZZ ( how bad i was ) -_-Z at last im free and able to type EHEHHE few more days be4 the funeral ends and i heard my CNY ( Chinese New Year) was burn cuz can't celebrate, there go all my ANG BAO! thanks to those who are concern about me and very sorry to Herman that i can't play the league. SORRIE !
Quote " Never say fail till u try, Fail are for failure who fail to try"
hrm.. now at my cousin house helping out, last 2 days was hell? never sleep + lots of tiring stuff to do, now is like a zombie typing my blog..
being awhile since someone i know passed away, since 1999[ my grandfather] now my grandmother.. it's sad but life still have to go on.. so i here wish to thanks few people for encouraging me and comforting me, thx.. special thx to Kris Ong, Mei Yan, LiLing , and HoLam for their blessing *smile*
lots of things happen during the first night of my grandmother death, i pity my dad for
a) u noe he haf to call up sons/daughters of my grandmother telling them to come to the funeral [7 son 4 daughter]
b) they came because for the $$$ -_-;
c) the daughter tat my grandmother dotes to most came late? we are suppose to meet at 9.30am? she came at 2pm? GREAT?
d) those tat came didn't even stay for the first nite + 2nd nite wtf ?
anyway my dad say grandmother wasn't everyone favourite because she love to gamble alot BUT she never hit/scold his son/daugther/grandson/granddaugther be4 and she dotes everyone alot only bad thing is gambling -_-;
Quotes " It take a min to forgive someone but take a lifetime to ask for forgiveness" same thing apply to love *smile*
Didn't slept the whole nite, was thinking about my grandmother.. *sigh* why does people always regret when they miss or lost something? Although i didn't really love her alot, she is still a nice lady, may god bless her in heaven. I also think if i suddenly pass away, will anyone noe tat im gone? will anyone miss me? will anyone think about me? will people cry for me?
the pain of losing someone u love is big, the pain of losing is soul is greater so my advise is treasure everything and anything in life and not to regret until it's gone..
i wanted to talk to someone last nite but didn't find the courage to call.. tat person, scare tat person might be too tired?
Quote "Sometimes the only person that can make u smile is the one that hurt u the most "
After i was waiting to play Gunbound, the sever was down - -;. anyway i log into warcraft3 to play and chat up wif my friends and a call suddenly came, my dad n mum rushed home, bathed and call me to go out, i asked why? ......
my grandmother just pass away..
Getting up 4am daily is no joke, very tiring and when ur so tired u still haf to count hills of money is so.. oh ~~;, anyway back at home now after a hot bath is so refreshing ^^v Need to find one day to buy my ps2 -_-; planning to buy it since Nov? now is dec -_-; im so lazy.. anyway i read alot of books when im free on the road to other places, so here is some fact~
Question : if u noe a pregnant woman who had 8 kids already, 3 of whom were deaf, 2 blind, one mentally disabled and herself had syphilis, whould u recommend she had an abortion? before u decide, have a think about this one too :
it's time to elect a new world leader and only ur vote counts, here are the facts about the three leading candidates,
a) Associates with crooked politicians, conults with astrologists, has 2 mistresses, chain smokes and drink 8- 0 Martinis/day
b)has been kicked out of office twice, sleeps until noon, used opium in college and drinks a quart of whisky every evening.
c)a highly decorated war hero, vegetarian, doesn't smoke, drinks an occasional beer and has never cheated on his wife.
which of these candidates will u pick most likely? C?
Answer : A) is Frankin D. Roosevelt [ USA ex leader]
B) is Winston Churchill [ British ex leader]
C) is Adolf Hitler [ HAHAHAH dun tell me u dunno this guy?]
OH and if your answer to the abortion question was "yes" you just killed Beethoven. *(Da, Na, Na, Naaaaaa..... )
this is a true fact and this also tell us,
Quote "never judge things by it's book, or cover. : ) "
My topic is rather dumb? true love is like ghost -_-; well it have some meaning, everybody is talking about it, but few people have seen it, just like love, not everyone have found true love or tasted it.
Start of with thanking? Geez Thx to Sulin [ Ezr-Nilus] for giving me little advise about how to set up, thx to Liling [ sulin sister] for giving me the webby~
A Sunny sunday, being up since 5am? playing Gb[ gunbound] for sooooooooooooo long -_- abit lifeless.. 3 more week till im 20 ^_^ so happy, excited but also scare wat it will be like, cuz i plan to go hk to celebrate it T_T now got to replan everything from scatch :_( i should start brushing up my warcraft3 skill -_- or else i will pull down herman HEHEHE but im so lazy~ god help mE~!